Yearning – What To Do When You Are No More?
July
9
For ages I have yearned, yearned for solace from the world; for a look, for a touch and for acknowledgement. I have been bound to you for a long time, lived for you, yearned for the unreachable. For ages I have been the other, the one believing in fulfillment of love through you. I have yearned for a long time, but not anymore.
I am. I live and breathe. I love. I am all that a human being can be, all the miracles. I am ready, and still just beginning. I have come to an end, and I am just starting. I have died so that I can finally live. A miracle has taken place, the shackles of yearning have broken. A prisoner is now free. I am.
Dear Ernest Victor,
These lyrics are taken from the beautifully haunting song “Vincent” by Don McLean. I believe they apply equally to you…
…For they could not love you
But still your love was true
And when no hope was left in sight
On that starry, starry night
You took your life as lovers often do
But I could have told you Vincent (Ernest Victor)
This world was never meant for one as beautiful as you
Dear Cheyenne. I appreciate you comparing me to Vincent. Sometimes I do actually feel like him. And death does seem to be an option, but not mine nor anybody else’s but the death of what I have been, my pain and my desperation. Death of the past so that Love can reign unhindered!
Exactly. Not death but transformation. Taking life to the next level. It will take some courage and a lot of letting go…still,l the comparison stands! Glad you’re feeling better.