Last week I attended a five day course called Inner Humanity Camp http://innerhumanitycamp.com/tietoja/ created by six young people, who had been inspired by their own experience of sharing the whole of their humanity in deep trust and acceptance. In that state they had experienced a profound change of consciousness, which they intended to share with other people by organizing the Inner Humanity Camp. They succeeded in a miraculous way! Read the rest of this entry »

For ages I have yearned, yearned for solace from the world; for a look, for a touch and for acknowledgement. I have been bound to you for a long time, lived for you, yearned for the unreachable. For ages I have been the other, the one believing in fulfillment of love through you. I have yearned for a long time, but not anymore.

I am. I live and breathe. I love. I am all that a human being can be, all the miracles. I am ready, and still just beginning. I have come to an end, and I am just starting. I have died so that I can finally live. A miracle has taken place, the shackles of yearning have broken. A prisoner is now free. I am.

I wrote this post couple of days ago when my pain of being, pain of seemingly not living the life I was meant to be, was at its most intense. I wrote to see and to reveal myself to me, to reach beyond the pain that was consuming me. I wrote to get through the disappointment that has been a constant theme of my life. “There needs to be something else” was my driving force. And that something else was revealed to me the following night when I could not take the pain anymore. The pain opened up and gave way to life, to peace that has always been mine and yours as well, for sure. But to get there I needed to face my disappointment, the program that had been running my life until now. This is how I set about doing it: Read the rest of this entry »

What is it me that time after time chooses to take over the pain of my beloved, to carry it in the name of Love? Why should loving be so painful? What is it that I have not understood? What is the mis-take that leads me to ever increasing pain? I need to know, to take true Love as my focus instead of all the pain of my past. Read the rest of this entry »

The whole of my life I have dreamed of being seen, of being loved for what I am. The whole of my life is full of disappointments of being loved only for what I represent for those around me. I have mostly been a reflection of their past, a mirage arising from the shadows of their own. Nobody has seen the true me, nobody has been able to embrace me fully; I seem to be too much for them all, we all seem to be too much for each other, only slivers of light allowed to come through the cracks of our painful past. That is what I see right now. Read the rest of this entry »