“In the beginning there was joy, joy that sang and created. The joy that is. Joy has time, joy never begins, joy never ends. Joy is not in a hurry, joy is and allows its play go on. Joy is one, alonethe whole world, the universe itself, joy is Life Itself.”

This is how I wrote sometime in the 1990s at the beginning of a text about the creation of Universe. I also included the whole of that text in my latest book, “Love The One You Are”. It has been my guiding star, my knowledge and understanding ever since. Or somewhere beyond this confusing human mind and world exists an all-encompassing and penetrating joy, the beginning of everything.

Last week, Life Itself was condensed towards the edge of my limited universe, where I have been stuck to keep that deeply longed joy at bay. And on Saturday morning using ACIM as a kind lever I stepped beyond fear, where that Joy has been waiting for me, and you, ever since the beginning of time. Now, I am aware of that my journey in this garden of fear and anxiety is finished.

I received a bit of confusing confirmation of the magnitude of that change when I met a friend I hadn’t seen for a while. In his eyes, I was so strangely happy that he seriously asked if I had drunk, used drugs, or was in psychosis. He was afraid of the joy I had found.

I have left after me a ladder leading up to my awakening, or the books that I have written on my way to this eternal space. I know they can be of help to someone else wanting to finish their journey, or to come to the the holiness from which our journey once began and which has carried it through all our messy endeavors. Here are the titles of my books from 1988 to 2020. They tell it all 🙂

The Fragile World of Thought, The Strange Flow of Life, Speeches to My Son, Open Letters, The Silent Song of Love, The EU or the Living World?, Life Is!, Order Out of Chaos, A Little Book of God, Just a Thought, The Dance of Love and Death – how you release your deepest fears, When a Man’s Heart Opens, Love The One You Are, and Beyond Fear Itself. And a translation of Life Loves You.

I ended my book “The Strange Flow of Life” in 1988 with the following words. This year, 2020, I will end my book “Love The One You Arer” with those same words.

“I have to give my writings freedom, my child my own power to take on and fly. I need to let go of this book, it is not mine, it is a message of Life Itself through me, a message to me and to all people. The book has to go, it has to find its own way. I have done my utmost, I am no longer needed. “

In other words, the fearful Rahikainen of All Faults is no longer needed. Life Itself has taken the reins into its invisible hands.