April 29

I have been an avid student of Ramtha since 1990 when I read my first book: “Ramtha. An Introduction”. I studied Ram on my own until January 2004 when I attended my first Ramtha retreat in South Africa. That experience was overwhelming: I found three cards blindfolded from the Field and was elevated to a deep state of truth were I felt that I would literally ascend within a very near future.

My mind was humming in a magnificent calm which produced a vision of me leaving the course some days earlier by walking on the notoriously dangerous South African roadside. Which I did and eventually found myself on beautiful farm where this process of divine presence continued. It was still there when I returned back to the Åland Islands in Finland, but it soon evaporated when the invisible prison of my own mind descended upon me in the familiar environment of my home.

Since then I have worked to regain – or to re-remember – that purity of mind, that innermost truth of who and what I am. I have attended Ramtha courses in France, in Italy and in Yelm, and got new equally powerful experiences of truth. One morning in Yelm we were instructed to envision the Grid against the morning sky. We sat in the field under JZ’s mansion and started creating. I had never focused upon the Grid before, but gradually I began to see it in the sky. Then a pulsating angel-like figure appeared in the grid. It was just light in the form of an angel without any specific features. I was quietly amazed, watching something I had never seen before.

My experience was made even more powerful when the same evening the guy who took orb photos showed us what he had caught on the film the very same morning. Not many orbs but an extraordinary picture of an angel in the sky. He called it the Gridangel and it was pictured just above where I had sat on the field. I went to him and said that I had seen the same angel. He did not take me seriously. How could I ever prove what I saw? But I knew…

Ramtha has been teaching us for a long time that we are all Gods that have forgotten our own true nature. He has also said somewhere in his many books that the most simple and the most powerful focus that we can apply is the focus on God itself, on the formless behind all forms. In God’s presence all of our troubles, problems and challenges are solved. The Oneness of  Point Zero is the source and the base of the multitudes, it is the Core of God within all of us. That focus created the experiences recounted above and that focus healed my body from the threatening ravages of the borreliosis recounted below.

The most feared beast on our beautiful islands is the tick, the blood sucking tick that has taken the life of many a man. When the bacteria that this little beast carries spreads into the brain the body withers away or gets seriously incapacitated. Some years ago I got that disease.

One day a neighbor of mine asked me whether I had noticed something strange about my face. “Yes, my right eye had felt a bit awkward.”  She said that I looked like her husband when he was seriously ill in borreliosis. She saw that my face was partially paralyzed, it was hanging.

I knew that I was in big trouble. I had had borreliosis, the tick disease, most every summer on these paradise islands. And right at the moment I was carrying several of those typical rings of inflammation on my legs. I got scared.

Actually I have never been so scared, ever. I knew what this disease could do to my body, I could just shrivel away if it got any further. I also knew that the cure was equally bad, a hundred days of antibiotics, some of it intravenously, could easily do the same. I was truly between a rock and a hard place.

I just needed to do something, to find a cure. I knew that every disease has its cause, its true root, in my own mind. Something that I had chosen to carry in my mind had made me sick. How would I ever find out what it was?

The fact that my face was already paralyzed told me that the disease had already spread into my brain, the seat of my mind was threatened. I needed to do something, and do it quick.

I was trembling in my fear, fully filled by this threat to my being. I was terrified. I chose to wait until the next day. I needed to think about this.

The next morning I knew I had to go to the hospital. There was no way around it. I went in and was immediately transferred to the emergency ward. My situation was truly serious.

Blood tests were taken. And I was left to wait. I felt that I was taken care of, that I could concentrate on facing my challenge. I instinctively chose to cut away all my thoughts about the world around me, I just surrendered to the situation.

I spent hours on my own, waiting for the next visit by the nurses and doctors. Their tests did not show anything positive yet, but my symptoms were serious. I chose to go deeper and deeper into a meditative state, to fall further and further into my own mind as I knew that somewhere deep down in my own unconsciousness was a thought or an attitude that was making me sick. I knew it was there, but I had no idea what it was. I just chose to dive deeper sensing the protective environment of the hospital.

As the final definite test the doctor decided that they would take a sample of my spinal fluid, that’s where the bacteria should be visible. At six o‘clock in the evening a needle was stuck through the low of my back, not so pleasant that either, and the sample was taken to be analyzed.

I was ordered to lay down on my back for two hours, otherwise I could have some complications because the balance of my nervous system had been disturbed. I was left alone.

I went on with my meditation, Putting aside all thoughts of myself, of my world, of anything that I knew. I just lay there knowing that somewhere within my mind the reason for my illness was waiting to be recovered. Whatever came to my mind, I just put it aside, letting it go. I just kept on emptying my mind. I went on…

And then suddenly, in a flash, I knew. I knew the reason for my illness, I knew why my body had been a fertile ground for the spreading of the bacteria. The knowingness sort of came through, showed itself to my inner eye, and that very moment I knew that I was healed, that there was nothing in me anymore that would nourish those bacteria. I was free, I was healed.

The doctor came in at 8 o’clock saying that unfortunately they had not been able to ascertain that I had borreliosis and that he would send me home. I told him what had happened to me, and he looked at me in kind disbelief and said that I should take a regular prescription of 10 days of antibiotics. I knew that I was cured but accepted the minor dose he suggested.

”By the way, could I have one more look at the rings before you go”, said the doctor. I took up my trouser legs and there was nothing to be seen anymore. The doctor was baffled and I went home conscious of having been fully cured by my own revelation.

I took the prescribed antibiotics and within days also the paralysis disappeared. I knew even better that I was on the right track.

Some weeks later another doctor called and said that she would urgently want to see me. I went and met a seriously worried doctor, who said that the results of the tests taken had finally come in. They showed that I had exceptionally high levels of antibodies to borrelia, the count was over 300 when the normal state would be zero. She was ready to give me intravenous antibiotics immediately followed by 100 days of the same orally.

”Yes, I hear what you say, but I also know that I am cured. I feel fine and there are no signs of borreliosis in my body”, I said. She just could not believe me. We had a long argument. She told me what she knew, and could read from her papers. She obviously wanted to help me. And I knew that I did not need any help, I was cured.

Finally she suggested that they take a new blood test to see what was happening in my body. I agreed to that.

When the results of this second test came in they showed that all counts were normal. I was cured. I had gone all the way to the Point Zero, or the Core of God, within me and allowed my body to heal itself.